As for what we're doing for Ianto's birthday...I really don't know. I'd like to do something to "celebrate" but I can't think of anything. We'll definitely be going to the cemetery and visiting him, but that's as far as I get. Scott's working that morning, I'll have a hospital appointment that day... I just wish more "real life"people cared enough to warrant a party of some sort. Well, not a party, I suppose, but something. If you're another "babyloss" parent, let me know in the comments what you did for your baby's first birthday, or what you're planning to do. I think, since Cookie will be born close(ish) to Ianto's birthday, we'll have a special little cake or something at every birthday party. But this one, I'm stumped.
I got quite a bit of support for posting those belly photos last week. I've been so ashamed of my belly through this whole pregnancy - I'm a bit of a chubba to begin with, so I didn't think my belly was "pretty" or "neat" enough. Then it snapped. My belly is beautiful. No, it's not the "normal" shape of a pregnant belly - it's flat at the front, and almost disappears when I lay on my back - but it's grown two babies now. My front is covered in stretch marks. I don't care anymore. They really are my Mummy Badges.
On a different note, this blog will need a makeover of some sort once Cookie's born. I'm eternally grateful to Sarah for designing it last year - I've tinkered with it a lot, mostly out of boredom, but it's still essentially the same. I think I'll have a crack at doing it myself... Even if I fail, I have the default designs to fall back on.