Yesterday was strange. I wasn't sad exactly, but I felt myself really missing Ianto. I wanted him there, to share everything that was going on. There wasn't even anything going on, really, I just wanted him.
Did you know there's a 3% chance of a subsequent pregnancy ending in another stillbirth? That's opposed to the usual 0.7% risk. I was looking up these kinds of statistics because I want to be well-informed if I have to fight to birth where I want to birth next time.
Fingers crossed I can turn this into a "pregnancy after stillbirth" blog very soon. I think another baby might help my heart heal a little
EDIT: I forgot to mention, Ianto's story was featured last month on a blog called "Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope" if you want to read more sad stories. Here's the link to Ianto's.