June 26, 2010

The results are in [or; Doctorcide]

(Note: I started writing this on Friday)

Drum roll please....

brrrrrruuuummmmm brrrruuuummmm...

I have polycystic ovaries. Hooray.

See how happy I am?
No, actually, I'm fine with that. I'm okay with the polycystic ovaries, because it gives a reason why my body doesn't do what it's supposed to when it's supposed to.

What I'm not happy about is how the doctor dealt with it. I've seen this doctor a few times (being a public patient, usually I would see a different doctor every time I went in) and I knew he was hopeless from when we got Ianto's results. He skims over results, tells me things I already know, speaks reallyquicklysoIcan'tunderstandwhathe'ssaying and in a really strong, indecipherable accent... You get the picture. So, I wasn't too surprised when this happened:

  • He walked into the room and asked if I'd been to this hospital before. I promptly snapped "yes, many times" as I always do when I'm stuck with him.
  • He glanced over my ultrasound results and said something about how I wasn't ovulating when I had it. When was my last period? Again, I snapped at him. "It finished the day before the ultrasound." I happened to look at the screen and noticed down the bottom it said "Conclusion: Polycystic ovaries." I crapped my pants and waited for him to come to it. Then...
  • He started looking at the blood test results I got a month ago and telling me the results of those. I told him I already knew that, and could he please tell me what the ultrasound said?
  • He ignored me again, and asked for clarification about my miscarriage - "it was at 22 weeks, correct?" Let me say that again. He asked about my miscarriage at 22 weeks. Last I checked, Ianto was stillborn at 32 weeks. And legally, at 22 weeks, that would still be a stillbirth! I almost yelled at him the correct details, and asked about the ultrasound again..
  • He again told me that I wasn't ovulating (DUH!) and started talking himself through the results.
You know how, when you're talking to yourself, or asking a question you know the answer to, you kinda sum everything up? He did that. He said something like "...had problems with polycystic ovaries for a while..." at which point I pounced. I got one of my little anger rushes and SNAPPED at him "yes, that's what the ultrasound was checking for!"

It didn't even phase him that I was angry and so close to punching him in the face. He just casually said something about how I've had it for my entire life, he can't see how I didn't know already, blah blah blah. I asked what we're going to do to treat it, and the bastard laughed at me! He said that there's no cure, all he could do is give me something to make me ovulate. I knew that already. That's what I meant when I asked about treatment. Then he said something else and I had to physically restrain myself.

He won't give me the drug (Clomid) unless I'm not pregnant by December. Because I managed to get pregnant with Ianto without help. We explained that we had gone without contraception for a year beforehand, we just weren't actively trying until just before we found out I was pregnant. But no. He won't do anything about it. I even asked if he could prescribe it anyway, for my own peace of mind, and he said no because the risk of multiples is higher on Clomid. Wow, too bad if I actually wouldn't fucking mind having multiples! Yes, I know that there's more risk of miscarriage, prematurity, etc. with multiples. But that doesn't outweigh my need to have another baby.

Let me put it this way. I don't know the exact numbers, so let's say the probability of having multiples on Clomid is 50% and the probability of having premature birth in multiples is also 50%. I would have a 25% chance of premature multiple birth on Clomid. 75% says I would have a normal, full-term birth, possibly a multiple one. Does that make it easier to understand? I'm willing to risk that 25%.

My head hurts now.

So, in conclusion, I'm changing hospitals as soon as I can.

Next post: I celebrate Red Nose Day.


  1. Oh Teni... I can't stand Drs like that. I'm so sorry you're getting such poor treatment from a so-called 'professional' who is supposed to at least PRETEND to care. I guess, on the upside, at least you have some answers and I hope you find a great Dr who is on your side and willing to do whatever it takes to increase your chances of a happy, healthy pregnancy. I've just been diagnosed with PCOS myself (although my Dr says 'it's not, your hormone levels are okay') and I'm doing the rounds of GPs, trying to find a sympathetic one who can help me work out just what is going on, and if not why, then at least figure out how to live with it.
    All the best hun. x

  2. I've been reading your blog for awhile and am so sorry you have to go through this, and then deal with uncaring doctors as well.

    I have PCOS and the medication they had prescribed was different than clomid, My doctor had said that it wasn't considered a fertility medication but in a lot of people, it can help start/regulate ovulation and lower your rate of miscarriage. They gave me metformin. Unfortunately it couldn't stop the complications that led to my angel but I do have one living child while on it.

  3. I think if you had punched the doctor you would be doing a favour for mankind! Grrr! How angry making!

    Did you get to keep your ultrasound results and slides? Even if you didn't, if you go to a different GP they should be able to get your results sent over. If you aren't happy with what that awful doctor said, I would really recommend getting a second opinion. If you have to go for a non bulk billing practice, ask them how much their appointments are because often the out of pocket expense, after Medicare has given you a rebate, is only $25 - $30, but some go as little as $20. Some places also bulk bill if you have a concession card (I don't know if you do, but I thought I might throw it in there).

    We have practices here that bulk bill everyone and patients are still able to choose the doctor they see ... unless you are going through the hospital, a bulk billing practice shouldn't be able to dictate to you who you see.

    I think that doctor treated you horribly. If you can make a few phone calls to different doctor's surgeries, you might be able to find a more sympathetic doctor that bulk bills.

    Good luck with everything. I hope you get another sneaky baby very very soon.


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